TEACHING

so i decided to finally tell my mother..."mom, what if i became a teacher?"

i conversation...went...well went like this:

me: mom what if i were a teacher
mom: if thats what you really want to do
me: it is
mom: did you hear about all the teachers getting laid off
me: yea...but sooner or later all the kids that are being born now are going to be in school soon and they're going to need more teachers
mom: then they would just hire the ones they laid off
me: but you have to think about all the teachers that are going to retire to
mom: oh retirement
me: yea...and i really like it
mom: well you're not going to make alot of money
me: its ok.
mom: well you do what you want to do...maybe you'll be able to teach your niece
me: yea...they'll probably be in 3rd, 4th grade by then

*next day

mom: you know...if you were a businessman you would be able to go all over the world
me: but i don't want to travel
mom: but your company would be able to send you on all kinds of business trips
me: but i don't want to travel, how will i have a family
mom: well how can you have a family if you don't make any money
me: but if i travel, i won't be able to spend any time at home
mom: mmm

slowly...but she'll understand...and accept it one day

AWKWARD SEA NINJA TURTLES!

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get ready for me

i'm feeling great and motivated
hope, motivated, change
its all very exciting

omg i'm getting into as the world turns...NOOOO

new year resolutions

...can kiss my ass! rawr*

first day of school and everybody is at the gym! why?! THOSE DAM RESOLUTIONS!
i mean really?! i dislike the whole resolution thing. i mean, how long has anyone kept a resolution. a week. maybe two. if you're really good, a month. but yea i know this whole gym craze is going to fade but its really annoying that i can even get a treadmill.

besides the gym, today i paid for my housing almost 3800...crazy -_-
then i went to buy a stamp and envelope for my letter to leslie
then i went to vcn traditional practice
and after i went to a vcn staff meeting

tomorrow looks pretty busy too. my first day of class. errands in westwood. homework. practice. where does my best friend 'stevie the tv' come in!? :[

i'm also applying for jobs (or i mean will be) as well as a sea clear internship along with doing my service class at the elementary. plus my goal of looking like tae yang. DREAMS COME TRUE PEOPLE! "you just have to want it" ;)

well off to brush and sleep.

good night.

2008

all i wanted was
one little macbook
or a simple slr camera

but all i got was guilt...for wanting a laptop when i have a perfectly fine one
and an unnecessary thing like an slr camera

but its really all good
i'm pretty sure what i got for christmas this year
and its probably money and a sweater
...that and some kick ass memories with the fam bam

but this has been a good year for me and my family

my parents are talkin about retirement...
a well deserve break if you ask me
my oldest sister and her husband have a lovely family
with my two nieces...who are 4 and 7
kristina can't wait to start preschool and valerie is smart as hell in her 1st grade class...kumon...and she may start vietnamese school soon
my brother and his new wife is expecting
my middle sister had hopefully her last surgery in the spring
and her husband started his new job at apple
and my youngest sister is planning her wedding
...thats why i started early
my middle sister already took one of three color themes i thought of
but thats why i had three

overall my family is good
i even told my middle and youngest sisters about me this summer
they took it really well and i love them for it

friendship wise...i also think is good
i grew a closer bond with some old friends
and made a whole bunch of new ones

tiffany le is still there supporting me
brian is still around
james is still there for me
and whenever i'm back home i hang out with romeo, nick, and tiffanie which is always fun
and i get to see alice tiffany truong angela and grace over breaks
sahra and dale are great new friends i've made by going out of my bubble this year

speaking of which...i've been back and forth about my major
theres so many things i would consider but to scared to change anything
i'm still business econ and have decided to continue with it untill they say i can't
as well as pursuing an asian american degree
if i can accounting minor and/or education minor would be great too but i'm not holding my breath
this year i became part of vsu/vcn and i really love it
i feel like i'm not pulling enough weight but i really love everyone i've met
everyone on staff has been incredible and people i meet at the general vsu meetings are awesome people
and thanks to the sea clear mentorship i got paired up with a great mentor...hes nice a good listener and we have alot of things in common
next quarter i'm trying to get a job
and apply for the sea clear internship
and i have an internship from a service learning class
i'm so excited to start...i get to go to an elementary school 3hrs a week and at the end of the quarter i get to teach my own lesson plan
overall i think its a bit over ambitious...but i think i can handle it

i also wanted to do HOPE a tutoring/advisement program where they go to high school and help however they can from help with homework or someone to talk to...and i wanted to rush for a frat...but due to limited time and everything else i want to do...i had to give somethings up

my gpa is getting higher and hopefully i can graduate cum lade like my sister
its a long shot...but i want to prove that i can be just as good as my siblings
i mean...i know they're proud of me
i've done alot of things they never tried
they see more potential in me than they do themselves
but sometimes thats what makes me feel so inadequate...that they see all this potential but sometimes i feel that they think its a waste...that if i don't get the job that makes bank that everything they have done for me was wasted
but i may be over analyzing

i guess that's enough ranting for now

laterdays

simplicity

i want that feeling of simplistic joy

the smile you get when that special someone calls
the butterflies that overflows your stomach when you see them
the safety you feel when they put their arms around you

yup, it kinda sucks cause the people
who gets the chance to feel this
to feel this simplistic happiness
are the ones who take it for granted